okay but what if at one point john actually tells sherlock something along the lines of “so it’s not gonna be easy. it’s gonna be really hard. we’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because i want you. i want all of you, forever, you and me, every day”
Are you ever just overwhelmed by the horrifying thought that maybe, nobody ACTUALLY wants you around? And it’s not that you think everyone hates you, but it’s just that you’re not special to anyone? And that its really kind of sucky that you’re about 98% sure that nobody thinks “Wow, I just really like talking to her.” and that you could probably just disappear without anyone caring that much?